CRUD

I did not see this coming. I woke up this morning, expecting and interview, not a complete, life-overhaul.

I will begin a new job tomorrow, the first "adult" job I've ever had, and no, not porno. That would be easier, but silly me, do I like things to be easy.

NOOOOOOOOOO.
Because I'm stupid that way.

Life has just gotten harder, and the real world is nothing like it was before. Now, it's surreal, and I'm about to get the biggest reality check of my entire life.

I need this. I need to prove it to myself that I can do this; I WILL DO THIS.

What hurts is I must tell the group of people that I've just become centered with that I must leave them in a lurch, which was exactly what I didn't want to do, but progress, evolution, niether waits for personality. Just because you want to be proffesional and borderline nice doesn't mean you'll be given the opportunity.

I hate this.

Tomorrow, perhaps I'll feel different.

I need clarity, preferably with a side of Jack Daniels.

My brain shrieks.